Scripture: John 10:1-18
Key verse: (9) I am the gate.
Reflection: Won’t say his name here, no need and if you knew him you will know whom I am talking about anyway. He was from one of my Canadian homes and was a singer-songwriter, guitar player extraordinaire. I first heard him in college and I followed his career, seeing him whenever I could. My sister –in-law had a crush on him from their days together in high school and she and I formed an unofficial fan club of two and I am not sure to this day who had the bigger crush.
He performed often, once had a gig with a great Canadian band that I thought would lead to even bigger and better things, but it never did. No matter how amazing the performance, big the venue, perfect the recording, or exciting the opportunity, my troubadour never seemed to make it as big as his talent. One night at a raucous yet somehow still intimate concert, I shouted out for a song I had not heard him sing in a long time. Instead of receiving my request he cursed me out. It was our only exchange. Hurt as I was, I dismissed it as a consequence of the dozen or more beers he was drinking to fuel the night. When I read a year later that he was charged with battering his girlfriend, there was no excuse I could find.
He died recently, committed suicide. I didn’t know until then that he was suffering from schizophrenia, was plagued by it for decades and like many who suffer with it, he was as hindered as helped by medication, often choosing his own path and self-treatment.
Life is so good and so very, very hard even without a debilitating illness, never mind with one. What one person carries throughout the day is often a mystery and how they get through the day an even greater one.
I’m wondering as I write, that if our hearts are choked because the way feels closed and the windows shut with no way out and no help coming in, perhaps a prayer to the one who said he is a door that can be opened, a threshold that can be crossed, is a kind of prayer worth praying.
Prayer: Lord, I see no way out, I see no way in, I see no way through. My Savior be a door opened to me. Amen.
Author: Derek Macleod
[Scripture quotations are from New Revised Standard Version Bible, copyright © 1989 National Council of the Churches of Christ in the United States of America. Used by permission. All rights reserved].